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Here is the mission statement of my church...I wholeheartedly agree with EVERY word! (Even the TM squiggles!-haha)
I have attended every Tueday night for the past 6 years.
http://www.gracefellowshipintl.com/doctrinalstatement.htm
My witness is as follows..
I remember my mother once saying, "JESUS" with an outstretched arm as we were getting into a car accident..
I remember the witness of the Holy Spirit in school during morning prayers..
I remember goin to the Salvation Army Chruch around the corner as a little girl, all by my lonesome cuzza that witness..
I remember all the adults swarming me and asking me where my mother was!
I remember skipping down the street singing the only song I knew was from God, It was "Jesus Love Me"..
I remember getting hit by vehicles EVERY time I sang it too! (four times, then I knew there was a enemy bigger than me)
I had o soo easily forgotten how it was Jesus who saved us from certain death in that car accident, and was attempting to rebuke the enemy in my own strength! And so I therefore gave up on worhipping the Lord..
I grew up a VERY lonely girl..
No friends to speak of, at least none that would endure my quiet personality.
Ridiculed EVEN by boys at a tender age, I soon learned how to cope... (look-out!)
I learned how to manipulate using my beauty and charm..
How to intellectually coerse to get my way..
And how to satisfy my needs for love and acceptance thorugh these..
And how to lie, cheat and STEAL if the above didn't work..
First off.. I manipulated the Government to give me welfare checks every month
Secondly I set to work finding various men who could meet my needs
Then I was busy making money on the side with panhandlin...I'd sumtimes pull in $50-100 per day!
Panhandling (begging) for money one day I told a man I would go rob sumone unless he gave me fitty buks..
He gave me the money...
But little did I know that God was calling me..
That man must have prayed for me..
We would use the money for Marajwana or Hasheesh, Beer and Alcohol..
I felt HORRIBLE! I knew what I did was wrong..
But it only escalated from there!
I didn't know how to stop feeling horrible!
So I figured I would dull my conscious by commiting even worse hainous acts..
After all.. I was tough! I could do things noone even dared of!
My (then) boyfriend (
) and I would robb hotels...not all in ur face like, but sneakily!
We even robbed a lady of $500 in the University once (again, not in her face)..
I had another brilliant plan!
I would read the bible while panhandling!
Sureley people would give me MORE money then!
God witnessed to me while I read :EEK:
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I locked myself in the bedroom for three weeks and read the entire New Testament before I gave my heart to the Lord Jesus..
He robed Himself with a dark cloud and hovered over me as I confessed my sins
And came into me as I asked for the perfect Life of Jesus to be mine
I then went on my balcony and said "OK God, you can take me now!"
Nothing happened!
I went to sleep..
The next day was VERY different.
I woke up to the voice of God!
I experienced Him moment by moment until I would sin..
I didn't remember ALL he has said with only one reading of the bible..
So, I did not know to confess my sins and be cleaned and filled..
I continued in this state some time..I still do to this day on occassion, and often need reminders that I got dirty-HeH
I went to the Baptist Church down the road...As I remember God saying to go to the closest church somewhere in the bible..
They all greeted me..errr pawned over me like I was some sorta freak come from the darkest regions of the netherlands..Just like my only experience as a little girl
It was a BIG turnoff! But I was comiitted and would endure..After all, I was new to socialising in this fashion..
I got baptised there..And told my (then..yes another one) boyfriend to either marry me or get out..
He chose to marry me! And we were married in that same Church not 3 months later (abstaining in the meantime, Praise God!)
I attended that church for three months, but I found my needs were not getting met there...
And by that I mean, I wasn't getting fed! It seemed to just be a little comminity meeting rather than a church outing...No Pastor to speak of, and women leading the service just dun cut the mustard!
They did eventually get a pastor..But the moment I heard his sermon on law I was out a der like a bullet!
I quit goin there..And instead concentrated on reading the New Testament again and then the Old..Twice..
I got a job doing door to door canvasing for charity...It paid lousy, but it met my needs and it was good for children..
But I yearned for fellowship! I would ask and see if ANYONE and thier brothers uncle were Christian!
I was still doing drugs and drinking..
I had a panick attack one night while drinking and abusing my body with caffene and sugar..
I stopped drinking that night..
I had God speak to my concious one night while getting stoned..
He said to pray..and I did
And He opened my eyes to see the evil spirits hovering all around me trying to terrorize me and told me it's cuz I was stoned!
I quit drugs that night!
And then He brought me into a spacious place!
My Buddist Boss at the charity job, whom I would always antagonise becuase she was ALWAYS angry (while meanwhile Buddists' strive for inner peace) fired me from the charity job
I got a job doin market research with doctors over the telephone.
After only two months the job ended and I got laid off..But the lady there gave me a reference letter for my good work!
I got another job at market research..But they too had many lay off's..
Right before another lay off (we were not informed of this upcoming lay off), God spoke and said to leave, and to go to the place that He will show me.. I picked up an employment news and the first ad I saw I applied for it..It was cupon sales for a salon and there was a brother of Christ working there who would lead me to this fellowship I've now partaken of these past 6 years
This job didn't last like I suspected it would..Although I kept telling my boss "I was annionted by God to be here" I couldn't sell a cupon if my life depended on it!-lol I was annointed to be there, but only to meet Lee who would lead me to the group of believers I now share fellowship with!
At first the group would come right into our home!
My husband too, had given his heart to the Lord because of the foolishness of my preaching! Praise God!
So..Here we were two babes in Chirst with a GIANT of the faith coming right into our homes in the power of the Holy Spirit!
I was dumbfounded...LITERALLY..I became mute! The Lord shut my mouth! And all I could do was bask in the Light of the Lords Glory Living through this man...Tim
He testified powerfully to the the resurrection power of the Living God!
He's a little Jesus, because Jesus Lives in him...You know that's where Christians get their name..
The meeting held for a month in my home..Until Tim decided to get back to holding the meetings in his basement apartment..
John, a Spirit filled brother in Chirst, disciple of Jesus continued to come to our home instead..
My husband hated the worship with songs (still does..blames it on the tempo..go figure!)..So much so that he refused to have the meetings here any longer.. The meetings lasted another 3 months in our home, during which time I found myself yearning more and more for more of Jesus! I never argued once my husband said no more..Instead I went to the meetings in Tim's house and have been there ever since!
'Tis a congregation of 7, and on occasion 9...
We pretty much start out with greetings, coffee and treats, sharing of weekly experiences with God, prayer, study, worship, more prayer and warm goodbyes
We study from the Grace Fellowship Discipleship Course...Which leads us through specific passages of the bible relating to who we are in Christ Jesus (I am the full head of God in Christ Jesus), our position in Christ Jesus (forgiven, unconditionally accepted, Rightousness of God, justified by God) and our relationship to such (eg;I've been crucified with Christ, and yet I live, not I but Christ that Lives within me) And last but not least, who HE is in US! 8)
I go from Glory to Glory in our Lord providing I keep Jesus in front of me and my sins behind..
Noone will ever come to agree with God unless 'tis by His Holy Spirit.. So this I do..Forgetting those things which are behind, I press on towards the mark of the high calling of God...To see the Light of God in the Face of Jesus Christ!!!
If we live in the Light we aught to walk in the Light, as He is in the Light, and we have fellowship with one another
Not to say that I've already attained all I need, but I press on, not looking back!
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God said...He's cast ALL our sins behind His back..I confess my sin, and trust God to put them aside.
He's my maker now!
My past person was crucified with Christ Jesus my Lord..He put me to death and gave me NEW Life...His Life...Zoe Life!
I now have the Life of God Living inside me!
He's Holy and Blameless and He gives me HIS LIFE as my OWN! woot!
I am now a partaker of His divine nature..His very Being! WoWEEE!
One with Him, and with all believers worldwide, whether asleep or in the body, in Spirit and in Truth!
I now have HIS desires and abilites! Becuase it's not I who live, but Christ in me!
I can see Him Living! He's alive and well Living in Sister Pat!
He made me His Witness!
HE LIVES!
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PRAISE THE LORD ALL YOU, HIS SAINTS!