Though not a guild member, I stand in need of prayer. About a week ago I tried for a lethal dose of oxycodone - unsuccessfully. Needless to say this has upset some things around the house and family. Although refusing hospitalization until the med crisis was past, I have since been in the hospital for some medication changes, consults and much more scheduled. Somebody got the hint I am seriously tierd of this tremendous pain I suffer. Imagine what it is like to give natural birth and then multiply it by 10 and you are close to understanding everyday life for me. I appeciate your prayer. I cannot say much of my actions have been rational for a while. Perhaps this sheds some light. Thanks!