Wow, Pneuma - to hear you describe it you ought to be burnt to a crisp by now! LOL!
Seriously, Bill - I am telling you God has something great lined up for you. If I know you like I think I do, you would not be above working in a convenience store somewhere, but I do not think that is where you will go... God has something really special for you. Follow these closed doors to the one that is open. Don't let your talent sit idle, either. Freelance or donate some work to churches and ministries, or even community service organizations. Seek non-traditional means of working. To coin a phrase, think outside the box. Get some of you best buds and mentors to sit down to have a jam session of possibilities and ideas of where to look. God gave us all this wonderful, physical instrument that many are often guilty of not using: the brain. Like Him, you have a free thinking will, subjected to Christ, that can carry you a long ways when put to work.
I am praying for you. I am tired of seeing Tots do without the joy that Christ has sent her way in you! You lucky guy! Or I really should say - you are so blessed! I have a feeling that you two are going to make an awesome team. And as an old gospel song by (I think) Lanny Wolfe says, "I've got a feeling everything's gonna be alright!" Faith....thee substance of things hoped for and evidence of things not seen.