It's certainly true big tech doesn't own everything, the Conservative and free speech backlash against big tech is becoming significant, but major platforms for getting dissenting voices heard are few. The internet was supposed to free people but it seems like it does the opposite. People going to their safe space and demanding other places become them lest they be triggered by someone disagreeing. Christians fearing too much to have meaningful conversations on their own Discord about their own beliefs. YouTube posting Left leaning links for Covid, abortion, and voting. Then you find out you've been shadow banned on Youtube (the only social media site I use) after pouring hours of work on purely polite, and mostly non-political fluff, posts for nothing. Not to mention Google requires a phone now for a new account so if you can't afford one tough luck. The Conservative Reedit requiring karma to get in though the Leftist one didn't (so I am thinking one gets more trolls than the other). Seems like it was so much easier when you could just walk up and talk to a stranger at a well.
I guess I could try Twitter now that you are allowed to say a man is a man and woman is a woman but I'm only talking in places that I actually use. I watch videos on YouTube so I make comments there, I play the games with Christians so I make comments there. That's called a normal relationship where you know, talk. I don't actually like talking, at all, about anything, but Bible says I should so I do. I'm not starting a ministry I just make normal, polite, comments in the places I go (the internet being the only place I can go) and the internet tells me to shut up.
That's not an area I can speak with a lot of confidence and usefulness about, because I am an adamant avoider of social media myself. I only use Twitter because I don't have to create an account or share my data or be subjected to any algorithms to read posts there. It works to just bookmark individual people or organizations I want to follow to read their pages directly, but I don't try to engage in conversations there.
In my experience, social media tends to be a place where the majority of people are trying to gain benefits of social networking without taking on the work and responsibilities involved in actually maintaining relationships, so even if much greater numbers of people happen to be there, I don't usually find them as worth my time as less populated places where participants are more thoughtful and meaningfully engaged.
Of course, the Lord will call people to work in all kinds of places, so I don't want to come across as trying to dissuade you from being there if you feel a specific calling to it. However, concerning your statement:
I don't actually like talking, at all, about anything, but Bible says I should so I do.
there are three specific Bible verses that come to mind if you would find them helpful (but no offense will be taken if God has strongly convicted you in another direction):
1 Corinthians 9:7-10: "Who goeth a warfare any time at his own charges? who planteth a vineyard, and eateth not of the fruit thereof? or who feedeth a flock, and eateth not of the milk of the flock? Say I these things as a man? or saith not the law the same also? For it is written in the law of Moses, thou shalt not muzzle the mouth of the ox that treadeth out the corn. Doth God take care for oxen? Or saith he it altogether for our sakes? For our sakes, no doubt, this is written: that he that ploweth should plow in hope; and that he that thresheth in hope should be partaker of his hope."
The Lord doesn't expect you to go places on your own and fend for yourself to accomplish things for Him without giving you everything you need in guidance, grace, and sufficiency to see it through. While meeting some resistance in serving the Lord is inevitable because the world as a whole rejects Him and we as disciples are not above our Master so we can't expect to be more welcomed by the world than He is (Matthew 10), if you're not being adequately provisioned for the kind of resistance you're seeing, then maybe the Lord has somewhere else He would rather you be. And if that's the case, that's not an issue of personal failure in what you were trying to do, but just that God has different strategic goals in mind that He'd like to use your efforts for.
Luke 10:2: "The harvest truly is great, but the labourers are few: pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he would send forth labourers into his harvest."
There are more than enough people earnestly seeking what Christ has to offer than there are workers willing and able to reach them. Those are the people we need to be seeking and reaching out to, and we don't need to be wasting time with others who are either tares among the wheat or not yet mature enough
for harvest.
1 Corinthians 9:20-23: "And unto the Jews I became as a Jew, that I might gain the Jews; to them that are under the law, as under the law, that I might gain them that are under the law; To them that are without law, as without law, (being not without law to God, but under the law to Christ,) that I might gain them that are without law. To the weak became I as weak, that I might gain the weak: I am made all things to all men, that I might by all means save some. And this I do for the gospel's sake, that I might be partaker thereof with you."
If you are called to speak to others, part of the process of that calling is learning how to be adaptable in your speaking to effectively communicate in varying cultural contexts. If the Lord hasn't gifted you with talents or disposition for that, then maybe you're being too hard on yourself and pushing yourself into frustration by going to places the Lord didn't intend, and maybe should consider and pray about the talents you do have to find a role that fits you better in His service.
Lastly, if the internet is the only place you are able to meet other people, that would indicate more of a problem with local churches in your area than the internet itself, and chances are there won't be any fully satisfying internet solution to meet your very real and valid fellowship needs. I think that everyone here cares about you and would be willing to be here for you in what ways we can, but I know it's not the same as real-world connection. A lot of my cynicism towards social media stems from a belief that it intentionally exploits disconnected people and preys upon their loneliness while allowing able-bodied to feel off the hook from more substantial inclusion of those who are not so able, but telling you I think something's bad doesn't help you find something good to replace it with. Being disabled myself, I can understand and empathize with your pain and frustration, but I know empathy alone doesn't offer much help, so I'll keep you in my prayers for God to comfort and guide you through this.
I think the church as a whole is going to have to undergo a lot of transformation to be more effective in this digital age, and I think a lot of good people are getting neglected and left behind while it keeps foot-dragging on this and dissipating its energies on more worldly pursuits instead. I think things will eventually get better because the Lord loves us and is still in control and surely has a plan that the world doesn't have the capability to defeat. But I think those of us who are currently living as outcasts will still continue to face difficulties for a while as things get sorted out. But this, too, is also service to the Lord, that honors and brings us closer to Him and shows our love and faith and obedience, even if it doesn't feel like we're accomplishing much else. It means something to God even if no one else appreciates it.
