Amicus Dei of [FoG]
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I'm angry at myself because I want to show you all Rondo Alla Turca by Mozart but every time I play it well there's no recording of it and every time I try to record it I basically bomb the whole beginning of it (and usually at least two parts after that).
I'm not camera shy and I definately don't have stage fright so why am I unable to play normally when I'm recording it on my camera? I feel so unfocused as if I'm just sort of in a different world while my hands push keys down without even thinking... it's so wierd...
I tried segmenting it but the beginning is my worst part and every time I mess up on the beginning I get angry at myself and the angrier I am the harder it is to play correctly...
Also I don't want to go slower because when I go slower it not only inherently sounds boring but it's also harder to keep up the techniques I'm using at higher speeds to keep my fingers working right... The speed supports the techniques which in turn support the speed.
Of course on this piece at any moderate to high speed if you miss a note you crash and burn, so every mistake I make turns into either stumbling and adding a beat or redoing what I just did correctly.
If I ever get any video of me playing it correctly I'll post it.
I'm not camera shy and I definately don't have stage fright so why am I unable to play normally when I'm recording it on my camera? I feel so unfocused as if I'm just sort of in a different world while my hands push keys down without even thinking... it's so wierd...
I tried segmenting it but the beginning is my worst part and every time I mess up on the beginning I get angry at myself and the angrier I am the harder it is to play correctly...
Also I don't want to go slower because when I go slower it not only inherently sounds boring but it's also harder to keep up the techniques I'm using at higher speeds to keep my fingers working right... The speed supports the techniques which in turn support the speed.
Of course on this piece at any moderate to high speed if you miss a note you crash and burn, so every mistake I make turns into either stumbling and adding a beat or redoing what I just did correctly.
If I ever get any video of me playing it correctly I'll post it.