Andy you read my bio, i have struggled with what you are going through now. I love you brother, you know that and words can not express nor the screen display the sarrow i have seeing you hurting so.
I know that saying God is enough is not what you want to hear right now.
Andy, find something that can consume you, for me it was Work, it did not matter, i went to church and put on the show of being a "good" Christian, inside i was hollow, atleast at work though i could consume my time and energy and only had to deal with my self the 30 mins in the morning and the 1hr at night basicly when i woke and slept. It sucks man not having that inner peace and joy. i dont know anything else to say, press on. just keep going no matter what, God willing, we will have you in tulsa or atleast the states soon, around brothers and sisters you love and hold dear. Andy if i could fly to England tomarrow and see you and just be there for you, know i would with out looking back. I love you brother, hold on, keep pressing on know that you are loved.