I am so sorry guys

Chaoshammer

Chaoshammer

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This stress, this anger, this chaos, I just can’t take it anymore! So much desperation to become lvl 60, so much time and effort I must put in. I am just so close but I just can't find anybody! I have failed the guild; I have failed in my duty. The devil will control you if you play too long! I am afraid I will get a terrible addiction if I go to lvl 60. I don't know why but I became so angry today and so angry at our guild. I have thought so many times about quitting and betraying our guild. There this so much that is bottle up inside and I just could not keep bottle close any longer. I really do hate people so much, I hate how they ask so much of you and get nothing in return. I was so deep in faith one time but I decided to stop serving the church because I just felt it was becoming corrupt. It’s has been the church that I love so much and had a great time serving. This guild feels the same way, its feel different, it doesn't feel very good and pure like the day I join it. I have lost my faith but still have my sanity. I am not going crazy guys I am just confuse and lost. I don't know what Redeemed is anymore? I am so sorry guys for betraying you like this.

Please just give me time, give me time to heal, I need to get away from this game before it corrupt me any longer. I will come back some day but I am afraid of what you guys will think of me for what I did.

Chaos is my name and it something that is meant to happen to me, it is something I am just so used to and I believe in. This game controls me guys and I need to get away before it’s too late.

The devil will not win!
 
Redeemed is like the Church, or anything else for that matter - imperfect. Redeemed hasnt changed since youve been recruited, only time and the peoples perception of the guild has. It has grown, a lot and it's ok to leave Redeemed. I was always brought up with this little saying: "Give much and expect little in return." I think thats the way Christ works. If your neighbor drops a million bucks into the offering plate, he isnt going to get better treatment in heaven (or in hell for that matter.) If you drop a quarter into the plate, God appreciates it. It's the thought that counts. Play only at certain times, like for an hour or so after school or work then an hour after dinner or before bed. I hope those make you feel better Chaos :)
 
Chaos,

I think I speak for at least most of the guild if not all. You have in no way betrayed us or let us down.

We all have our struggles.

MMO have needy people who don't know they are needy. They can wear you down.

Relax and refresh and renew your spirit.
 
Group HUG on Chaoshammer! We still love you and there is no way to stop us Muhahahaha! Darn humans always making mistakes, why can't they be perfect? Oh right now I remember.

Seriously, you are welcome back whenever/if you are ready. We don't feel betrayed or "let down" we just feel sad that a member of the "Redeemed" family is hurting :-(
 
Well after some rest and saying a pray I am feeling much better. I think I might have been a too harsh in my statement above. You play for such a long time and the game starts to become the center of your life. But it’s just a game, it’s something I just do a lot and think about it a lot. Maybe it would be good for me to take a break for a day, a week, or even a month if I have to. I like to get involve maybe in something else. Maybe there something for me to do at my church and they have always welcome me no matter how much I have change. I will come back to the guild and I help out those who are in need. I believe the reward for helping others in WoW is love and respect. A name is well remembered and well heard in our guild. But the name, Jesus Christ, is the greatest name that our guild knows and honors. We are a Christian guild and we have our Christian lives. When we have done our duty serving God in life we come to this game to relax and still enjoy love and friendship. I have learned some things from the Redeemed guild, this guild show that there are people out there in this digital universe that will welcome you and will be your friend. People that you can share your life with and enjoy a game together. I was wrong to ever think we were different or had no faith. We are defiantly changing and growing as a guild and I just seeing more friends being made. You guys are really awesome. I usually never hang out much or socialize too much on the outside. I used to very social and active, this guild made me think that I can go outside (or go back to my church) and be a real person again, a Christian. WoW is just a game and a game that show the example of how the world can be sometimes. Since WoW has the Redeemed guild, the world has Christ. There many sufferings and sins in the real world and I should not be afraid. God is always there to comfort our souls and bring hope to our hearts. This experience I had felt like I have lost faith. But faith is something you can never ever lose. You believe in Jesus Christ and it will stay with you for all eternity. Maybe this game is actually a great opportunity for us to find those who are lost in the game and show them there is a better life. I will come back again and I will go for level 60. But being level 60 is no big deal or honor. It’s a level you reach in a game. I feel more proud and amaze to find people who would make Christian guild in a game where no one thought Christianity actually exits. And I feel very proud to say that I am Christian and I do believe. Everything the Tribe of Judah contract says is true and its honor to be welcome here. I think feel much much better, such words I type do comfort me. I’m just so sorry for being angry guys, all I ask is for forgiveness and I will come back someday, helping as much as I can and not expecting anything in return because that is the will of a Christian. I have learned so much in this guild about the Christian life I have forgotten long ago. I love you guys and truly love Jesus Christ for helping me so much in life and giving me hope no matter what happens. I'm going to go offline for a while but will be back someday, everything will be the same maybe even better.

God Bless all of you and God Bless this community of faith,
Amen
 
You are to be admired for seeing the addiction and taking steps to help. Don't worry brother, in 2 weeks or a month, WoW will still be here. Might be a few new faces in Guild and a few gone, but basically it will be the same.

Don't stress about 60, it will come when it comes and it will be sweet and sour at the same time. Also don't feel you need to rush to raid with us. As time goes on we will just be getting better, so when you do eventually raid with us, it will be that much more organized and smoother running.

Most important is to strengthen your walk with our Lord. Celebrate real life like you said, and then come back to this virtual life with a new focus and outlook.

Know that you are loved and your brothers and sisters will be praying for ya.
 
the quest to 60

Its funny you should mention the stress of hitting 60 ... I have been playing since open beta and have not hit 60 yet. I get to the 20's or 30's and get bored with that toon and start another. I have at least 5 in the 20's, 2 in the 30's, 1 in the 50's and now Haiden bailed and I get to play his 60 hunter which so far has been the most fun. Not because he is 60, its because I can group with a solid guild of people doing stuff that requires a lot of people to accomplish, that is the gist of what keeps me coming back to Stonemaul.

So don't stress I gave up the quest for 60 a long time ago, if it happens grand but if I never get there no biggie.

ssbob
 
Chaos,

I'm glad to see that things are starting to work out for ya. That's one of the things that I have noticed about this game, while being extremely fun, its also extremely addictive. I have NEVER played an RPG before and this game is completely new to me. Everything is new to me. I can't tell you how many times i've started a new toon when things get rough in the game. For example with Berius got to lvl 22 i started a few other toons (bloefeld, nosoupforyou). Actually I'm happy to report that I've finally settled on a toon for my main guy, which is a hunter. but anyways, just keep one thing in mind while playing...it's just a game! Have fun! I'll probably never hit lvl 60. and you know what? I don't really care! I'm just here to have fun. I guess i'd kinda like to hit lvl 60 because there are sooo many cool areas i have not seen yet in the game and I really like to explore :)
But I'm very glad to hear that everthing is getting better with you. Your a fun guildie and one of these days we'll have to go exploring sometime :) Take care bud and I'll say a prayer for ya!
 
I'm glad your feeling better Chaos. Always remember games may come and go but Christ will always be the one constant in our lives. It's through Him that we recieve our strength, if you remember what Paul said;

It's no longer I that live but Christ that lives in me.
 
Glad to have you back buddy. The road to 60 wouldn't be the same without ya. The game is addicting....no one I know has ever denied that fact. Being able to see that and being able to say "Hey...I need to take a break from this. It's just a game" takes a lot to do...in my opinion. No one's pushing you to be 60 so just take it one step at a time. Don't forget that you can always talk to us if you need to rant. I'm all ears...literally...have you SEEN my night elf's ears?!?! =P

Questing buddies FTW! =D
 
Chaos,

I pretty much would agree with what Melinarlia said, and say the same.

I've enjoy playing this game with you. I would have to agree, that I often feel very addicted to this game and a break is in order. The outside WoW life needs attention too. I've had to take a break over the memorial day weekend for the most party. I didn't play the game except for maybe an hour on Sunday and a tiny bit on Saturday over the three day weekend. Point being, I respect that you did what you felt was right in the Eyes of the Lord and took a break. And when you're ready to come back, you, me, Meli, and whoever will have some more good times.
 
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