Getting Things Sorted

Kendrik

Kendrik

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Hey crew, I'd rather not get into particulars here at this point in time, but I could definitely use some prayer. One of my classes this semester required that I consider several years of crap I've been put through by other people, things I'd suppressed and generally forgotten about (at least consciously). The result of considering these things has been a drastic change in my thoughts and behavior, such that, after actually vocalizing some of this tonight, this is the first time in a long time I've truly felt like myself.

Bottom line, these things need to be properly processed and laid to rest, and my desire to do so is lacking. Even with adequate desire, actually letting go of my hurt and anger isn't easy. I need God's help in all of the above, so your prayers for such will be much appreciated.

Thanks.
-Kenny
 
We'll be praying for you, Kenny. Forgiveness is tough. I can attest to that. But it starts with a choice. God tells us that we are to forgive and let Him deal with the rest.

After that, it becomes a conscious decision to keep it in God's hands. Every time I started to stew over the past, I felt like God was scolding me a bit, saying, "Hey! You gave this to ME, remember?"

It took a long time of me getting scolded, but I can tell you that it is so refreshing and freeing to not have that anger holding me back when I look in the eyes of those who committed sins against me.
 
Durruck said:
We'll be praying for you, Kenny. Forgiveness is tough. I can attest to that. But it starts with a choice. God tells us that we are to forgive and let Him deal with the rest.

After that, it becomes a conscious decision to keep it in God's hands. Every time I started to stew over the past, I felt like God was scolding me a bit, saying, "Hey! You gave this to ME, remember?"

It took a long time of me getting scolded, but I can tell you that it is so refreshing and freeing to not have that anger holding me back when I look in the eyes of those who committed sins against me.
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True words across the board. Definitely easier said than done for me, but it's what's gotta be done.

Thanks for the prayers, my friends.
 
I won't lie. It wasn't easy. and it certainly didn't happen overnight or even over one year. I carried that nastiness openly for around 5 years.
 
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