My first question would be why you think God's will would be for you to be sad and lonely? We are able to live victorious in Him!
Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. Romans 8:37
The verses are endless, He has more for us than we can ever ask or think; we are written in His hands; He sings and rejoices over us!!!
Your post really touched my heart and I will be praying for you. About this time last year it seemed everything that could go wrong did in my life! I feel a bit ashamed of doing so now, but I prayed and asked God to not only show me that He loves me, but teach me how I can love Him in the manner in which He deserves. I wish I could tell you from there I was walking daisy strewn paths, but it ain't so! However, I did learn much. God showed me His provision in some of the most amazing ways. So many times they brought me to my knees. For me, learning how much He loves me also in turn, had me in more fellowship with Him.
I think our trials come for many reasons. The trying of our faith worketh patience which makes us perfect and entire. In addition, I think we sometimes go through the wilderness to not only learn to rely on God, but to learn how to study His Word and fellowship with Him more closely. Also, it is times like those that reminds me that God created me for fellowship with Him and that lonely feeling is what He feels when I am not drawing close to Him. Truly the enemy, rather that be of our Spirit, or simply our lazy flesh will keep us from drawing close to God. Atown is so right. Our feelings, emotions, and circumstances can get in the way of not only getting close to God, but feeling Him near. That is when it is most important to stand on the promises! Always believe what He says, regardless of how you may feel or how dark the path seems. A dear, most precious friend reminded me on a trying day to look at the LORD, not the stormy sea! We can walk on water, my friend!!!
Many times I want to search out Gods will. I promise, He loves us more than we can ever comprehend and He wants all the best for us. Romans 8:28 tells us it will work out for our good, but sometimes the process can be painful! Gods first will for us is to praise Him and give thanks in everything.
In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. I Thessalonians 5:18
As we do the things we know to do, He will step us through the bigger picture of His will in our lives.
I cannot encourage you enough to pray through this trial and ask the LORD to show you His Love. I pray that you will then begin to see His showers of blessing.
There is a preaching series on Victory at this site you may enjoy. It is rotated so the first one will be taken off the site next week. However, it is wonderful preaching no matter what they have posted for your listening pleasure and you can always purchase old sermons.
http://www.baptist-city.com/schaap_weekly.htm
We have victory in Jesus!! I am sorry this is so long, but let me share this song and I will hush it up
http://my.homewithgod.com/heavenlymidis2/victry.html
Victory in Jesus
Words and Music by E.M. Bartlett
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1 Corinthians 15:57
"But thanks be to God, which giveth us
the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ."
I heard an old, old story,
How a Savior came from glory,
How He gave His life on Calvary
To save a wretch like me;
I heard about His groaning,
Of His precious blood's atoning,
Then I repented of my sins
And won the victory.
Chorus
O victory in Jesus,
My Savior, forever.
He sought me and bought me
With His redeeming blood;
He loved me ere I knew Him
And all my love is due Him,
He plunged me to victory,
Beneath the cleansing flood.
I heard about His healing,
Of His cleansing pow'r revealing.
How He made the lame to walk again
And caused the blind to see;
And then I cried, "Dear Jesus,
Come and heal my broken spirit,"
And somehow Jesus came and bro't
To me the victory.
Chorus
O victory in Jesus,
My Savior, forever.
He sought me and bought me
With His redeeming blood;
He loved me ere I knew Him
And all my love is due Him,
He plunged me to victory,
Beneath the cleansing flood.
I heard about a mansion
He has built for me in glory.
And I heard about the streets of gold
Beyond the crystal sea;
About the angels singing,
And the old redemption story,
And some sweet day I'll sing up there
The song of victory.
Chorus
O victory in Jesus,
My Savior, forever.
He sought me and bought me
With His redeeming blood;
He loved me ere I knew Him
And all my love is due Him,
He plunged me to victory,
Beneath the cleansing flood.