My dear friend in Christ,
Storms come and go in our lives, sometimes they're not always easy to bear. We all do bad things, and we usually have to pay the consequences. You understand this by what I've read, and you already have decided to take time to improve yourself. God loves you, and we all agape you. We're rooting for you and we will always be your friends here, no matter what. May the Lord richly bless your life and your heart.
Ken