Thank you all. Don't want to burden you, but will explain a bit so you can stand with us in prayer. I'm disabled and have a very rare neurological syndrome. Quite simply, it causes migraines, absence seizures (blanking out for a few seconds), affects my memory, as well as impairing my cognitive abilities.
I guess the best way to explain it is to say it's like waking up one day after having a mild stroke and then finding that it just continues to get worse over each passing year. I have medications for the migraines and seizures which help. But even though it's not life threatening, it is progressive and there is no cure.
Still, there is therapy that helps to keep it from progressing. And oh you're not going to believe this but, poor me, it's gaming.
Seriously, I've been doing it for several years as part of my treatment and it is keeping everything from getting worse. So I guess all those high priced specialists were worth it.
Still, it's extremely frustrating. Kind of like going to physical therapy for an injury compared to going to a gym because you want to get in shape. I've done both and they are really very similar things and yet they seem totally different. It's a matter of perspective. But the Lord helps me through each day.
But I guess that wasn't quite enough, and the enemy had more in store for us. About 6 months ago my wife was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. At that time, the doctors gave her 6-9 months. But we have trusted God and she began radiation and chemotherapy. She completed the radiation and her first round of chemo right before her medical leave ran out, her employer terminated her and we lost our insurance. The treatment was very hard on her physically. Still the Lord had it under control. It worked out that the doctors planned on her taking some time off before beginning again. Thank God!
And He is good. Right now she is doing well. And we just found out that she has been approved for social security disability and it will begin in a month. And even though she has to wait another 18 months for Medicare, today we were able to get her insurance to get her back in treatment. It's expensive, but God, as always, will provide.
Obviously, these past few months have been rough. And there are times when, as humans, we do get worn down. And we are there. More expenses and more stress are not things we need in our lives right now.
But over the past few days, my wife and I have talked it over. And I realized we can't stop "standing" on His Word. We need to continue. And I can't stop my therapy over $15 a month. And I still need an outlet. Just because we don't always see it, doesn't mean the Lord isn't helping us.
So we decided that I'm going to continue to play. But I need to reduce stress in my life and not add to it and I'm fed up with getting ganked by pvp players from other realms while trying to lvl new toons. So I've decided to move my hunter to a PVE server where I'll play the majority of the time. Then all I'll need to be concerned with is competing with all the cross realm players for farmin nodes. I haven't decided on the realm yet, but I'll let everyone know when I do.
Dearthair is now lvl 85 and exalted with the guild. He'll will remain on Stonemaul and in Redeemed even though I won't be playing him much. Starting over will be a process, but it's still just playing the game. So it's ok. To make it a little easier, I started a new personal guild on my hunter and I'm lvl'ing it to lvl 2. I'm slowly going through all my items and mats and moving them to that guild bank. Only 4 tabs, but it's enough.
Once I'm done I'll just do a guild realm transfer so I can move him and take the bank with me. It'll give me mats to sell and some things to make starting new toons easier. I don't have a battletag yet. Need to do that too. Once I do, I'll let everyone know and if any of you want to group for a dungeon or a raid, once I get raid gear, I'll be able to do that either on him or via the cross realm grouping.
So it's not good bye after all. Just won't see each of you as often. Which I will miss. And I'm still looking forward to doing some dungeons with Gongli and learning some more. So when he's back in game, let me know.
