Bonita,
Know that while you may not see many responses in the thread, those that read will definitely be praying for God to comfort you and hold you close in your time of need.
Also know that even though we may not express ourselves in the way you'd like to hear, we do care, and we can deal with the times you've lashed out. But please try to keep in mind that we're here to support you through your hard times - you can express your hurt feelings, your pain... but lashing out may catch a few people the wrong way.
Even in your pain, try to keep a level head, slow your tongue, and keep in mind that God has a plan, and in the long run, you'll look back and find there was a good reason for the problems you're experiencing now. God has a plan for each of us, even if it means some hard times today. But that's also why He put the rest of us here - an ear to listen when you need to talk through your hardships.
I don't know which game you play, who's in your guild/clan/kin.. but you've got support there, and here with the rest of us. As always, my PM box is open, use it if you need to.
