Not really sure how to start this, but here it goes..
I believe it was 2 1/2 years ago when I fully became a member of ToJ, that was of course when i bearly had any knowledge of CS, guns, aiming, and what not. You could probably call me a noob back then and I probably would have agreed.
Those times, I would definitely call, happy times. I felt very priviledged to be part of a community where people interacted online through games and not only that had numerous other activities that were christian related. I probably was as happy and proud as I never been to be part of a community that counted ME important, even though it was practically my first experience being part of a big.. organization. I even joined to help Starcraft chapter prosper for about half a year, holding ToJ-sc activities and more. Though through staff decisions I was demoted to regular member from being in a leading position in other team, I felt happy that I did something to help what Tek7 was trying to achieve.
However, past couple weeks I lost all the feelings I had for ToJ. I see this community different, then one I saw and experienced 2 1/2 years ago. It seems that people deceive me or see me with hatred whether I have the ToJ tag on or not. I've gone through many stifes before, between sD/ToJ relationship. I don't think it hit me as hard or fatally as it did during the past couple weeks. From the moment I rejoined ToJ after the sD incidence, I tried my best to come back to the community and respect others. By some member, however, I received the opposite of what I've been trying to do. Many times it had forced me to leave the server out of anger or disappointment, and in one incidence, kicked by an admin while I was arguing with the ToJer who insulted me, and quite a few things that I stand for. Aparently I was the only one who was kicked between the argument since when i rejoined the server, ToJer I was arguing, maintained it's score.
I don't care if people insult me or not, but what disappoints me the most is that people in ToJ that are ruining what Tek7, and the rest of the CS-chapter staffs have started. I can't believe that the same community that made me proud, is now making me take my steps away from it. The purpose I posted this forum, is so people may realize that your own actions, will defile or ruin the works that other people are trying so hard to achieve. I just couldn't stand in the sideline and watch this happening. I had to say something to the public so people may realize it can happen.
-FlashoN
I believe it was 2 1/2 years ago when I fully became a member of ToJ, that was of course when i bearly had any knowledge of CS, guns, aiming, and what not. You could probably call me a noob back then and I probably would have agreed.
Those times, I would definitely call, happy times. I felt very priviledged to be part of a community where people interacted online through games and not only that had numerous other activities that were christian related. I probably was as happy and proud as I never been to be part of a community that counted ME important, even though it was practically my first experience being part of a big.. organization. I even joined to help Starcraft chapter prosper for about half a year, holding ToJ-sc activities and more. Though through staff decisions I was demoted to regular member from being in a leading position in other team, I felt happy that I did something to help what Tek7 was trying to achieve.
However, past couple weeks I lost all the feelings I had for ToJ. I see this community different, then one I saw and experienced 2 1/2 years ago. It seems that people deceive me or see me with hatred whether I have the ToJ tag on or not. I've gone through many stifes before, between sD/ToJ relationship. I don't think it hit me as hard or fatally as it did during the past couple weeks. From the moment I rejoined ToJ after the sD incidence, I tried my best to come back to the community and respect others. By some member, however, I received the opposite of what I've been trying to do. Many times it had forced me to leave the server out of anger or disappointment, and in one incidence, kicked by an admin while I was arguing with the ToJer who insulted me, and quite a few things that I stand for. Aparently I was the only one who was kicked between the argument since when i rejoined the server, ToJer I was arguing, maintained it's score.
I don't care if people insult me or not, but what disappoints me the most is that people in ToJ that are ruining what Tek7, and the rest of the CS-chapter staffs have started. I can't believe that the same community that made me proud, is now making me take my steps away from it. The purpose I posted this forum, is so people may realize that your own actions, will defile or ruin the works that other people are trying so hard to achieve. I just couldn't stand in the sideline and watch this happening. I had to say something to the public so people may realize it can happen.
-FlashoN
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