soozun
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I struggle with feeling like I don't want to go to church. I've only been attending church for the past 5 years or so, since I first started to believe in Jesus. I had a radical conversion from someone who was totally opposed to Christianity to being completely in love with Jesus. At first, it was really easy to go to church. But after years of attending one church, I have become really disillusioned with the church experience. I find the relationships with other believers to be very superficial, the leadership decisions to be kinda strange or incomprehensible, and I also have problems with feeling like I can't concentrate on worshipping God when they are playing worship music. I've been troubled for about 3 years with all these things. I've also not been able to attend any Bible studies at all due to schedule conflicts. It seems like whenever they have a Bible study, it's at a time when I can't go. I used to love Bible study, so this has been really sad and alienating for me. I'm just really unhappy at my church. And it sucks because it's not a bad church.
Most people would just change their church. I don't think most people would have stuck it out for so long as I have. But I have to stay there because my husband likes the church and doesn't want to try going somewhere else. I feel like even though I am unhappy, there has to be some kind of blessing in following my husband where he wants to go. But it is really hard. I just want to somehow change my attitude so that I can be more content. I have tried praying about it for quite some time now. (I have been going there 5 years and have been unhappy for at least 3 years).
I'm starting to wonder if I should just be frank and talk to other people about my feelings. But I guess I worry that I will be divisive or be a complainer. It really sucks to be alone in this.
Most people would just change their church. I don't think most people would have stuck it out for so long as I have. But I have to stay there because my husband likes the church and doesn't want to try going somewhere else. I feel like even though I am unhappy, there has to be some kind of blessing in following my husband where he wants to go. But it is really hard. I just want to somehow change my attitude so that I can be more content. I have tried praying about it for quite some time now. (I have been going there 5 years and have been unhappy for at least 3 years).
I'm starting to wonder if I should just be frank and talk to other people about my feelings. But I guess I worry that I will be divisive or be a complainer. It really sucks to be alone in this.